The 2 weeks before Molly died was rough – to say the least. I debated if I was going to go to Amsterdam with Roy. I told Doug I was quitting my job and got him out of my life. I disappointed my kids and argued with Kenny. Each one of these choices proved to be life changing. In this episode, I explore the sadness and self-hatred I have in the aftermath.
Key Takeaways:
[5:08] Molly and Gracie’s dance competition
[7:20] Molly doing theater and the headaches getting worse
[8:14] Doug kept piling extra work on me
[9:29] Doug wouldn’t stop texting me while I was with Roy
[11:06] Doug kept wanting to drink tons of alcohol with me
[12:13] Spending time with Doug instead of my kids
[13:36] Triangulation and narcissism in my life
[17:12] Telling Doug I quit
[17:54] Arguing with Roy about going to Amsterdam
[21:20] Doug going on a rampage, Molly getting sick, and tough choices
[23:18] I still have so much sadness and self-hatred
[24:06] The doctor saying Molly had an eating disorder
[25:00] I got a passport, but also planned to not go to Amsterdam
[25:32] Telling my kids I was going to Amsterdam
[27:59] Molly and Gracie were not happy I was leaving
[30:12] Going to the airport with Roy
[32:36] Enjoying my time in Amsterdam, but arguing with Roy
[33:44] Suddenly feeling like something is deeply wrong
[36:07] Staying with Roy an extra night would be a regret
[37:33] Waking up to 65 texts about Molly being sick
[39:11] Molly not waking up
[41:03] Telling Roy that Molly’s dead
[42:36] I blocked Doug and didn’t contact him
[43:01] Roy apologized to Molly
[44:23] Looking back and feeling insulted
[45:14] Robin supported me while Molly was dying
[46:48] Arguing with Kenny during that week
[49:10] Looking back on my choices
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