Re-Air: Ep. 113 – The Power of Friendship (E219)
Lions, Tigers, and Another Restraining Order… Oh My! (E218)
Science Guy Died (E217)
Science Guy was my high school biology teacher who I lost my virginity to. He died a couple of months ago and I only found out a few weeks ago. I’m grieving for him and many people have an opinion on that. But two things can be true: I can realize...
Re-Air: Ep. 64 – My Childhood Sexual Abuse (E216)
I was sexually abused as a child and it still impacts me at almost 60 years old. It took me a long time to be able to tell this story and to look back at the psychological impact that these terrible experiences had on me. It was a confusing time where...
Re-Air: Ep. 55 – The Lows and Highs of my Sophomore Year (E215)
My sophomore year was full of ups and downs. I went into the year not knowing where to sit at lunch, and unsure of myself. I ended up going to Germany, quitting gymnastics, joining the cheer team, and becoming a track star. As all these amazing things...
The Mental Load of Motherhood (E214)
As I Mother both my mom and my children at the same time, it made me contemplate what a mother is, all the things I take on, and how that impacts me. It made me think about growing up and how parenting is seen so differently these days. In this...
Re-Air: Ep. 18 – Trauma Bonds in Grief (E213)
As a result of trauma, boundaries have been a lifelong struggle for me. From my friendship with Robin, my friendship with Steph, and my job loss at Bow boundary crossing has followed me. I explore these 3 events in my life and how trauma has...
Slow Down, Barb! (E212)
The universe keeps sending me the same message: slow down, Barb! Doing six different things at once and expecting something to change is not working. So we’re still here three years later contemplating self sabotage through old blog posts I’ve...
I really, really struggle with self sabotage in every aspect of my life. From relationships, to not following through on things, to recreating trauma. It is an endless battle. I am working to better myself by being introspective and examining why I...
Laughing Through Grief with Evelyn & Steven (E210)
Evelyn and Steven have been through the ringer after two of their siblings died as a product of addiction. They still contemplate how things could have been different and if they would have followed the same path Leslie was on. But through their...
Anticipatory Grief with Danielle (E209)
Danielle cared for Lexi for 7 years as she battled a brain tumor they knew she would die from. Balancing taking care of someone she loves with also grieving them and having her life spent going from appointment to appointment was a lot - and that’s...
Grieving A Person You Never Knew with Margaret (E208)
Margaret is an author who lost a brother she never even knew. The news was a shock and she wanted to know all the details. But she didn’t get all the details right away, it has been years of talking to others and research that helped show how the...
Finding Happiness with Patrick (E207)
Patrick is 20 years old and has written a book that is filled with so much wisdom. We got to chatting about the impact of phones on society, instant gratification, his process for writing his book, and his unique outlook on life. In this episode,...
Grieving for Two Decades with Matt (E206)
Matt, the host of The Life Shift, came on to talk about losing his mom, perfectionism, learning new ways to grieve, and how having a podcast has been so validating. He goes through his journey of grief over a lifetime and how for so long he did what...
Weight and Organ Donation With Gabby (E205)
Gabby is the daughter of Tim who had a pig kidney put inside him, but he knows it’s only a temporary fix. So it sent Gabby on a journey to initially be a possible candidate to donate her kidney, but it became so much more. It has become a journey of...
Exit 20? On The Grief Highway (E204)
Highway to Hell… waitttt a minute, sorry, wrong place, although it can feel like that sometimes. In this episode, I am once again brought back to making other people comfortable in my grief. I may be at exit twenty in grief on a really good day, but...
Waiting Years for a Diagnosis with Tammy (E203)
Tammy went on a journey to find her diagnosis: Primary Hyperparathyroidism. Countless doctors, tests, misdiagnoses, and so many pills it made her head spin. After all the turmoil, she found her diagnosis, got treatment, and is living a great life...
Finding a New Relative with Eleanor (E202)
Eleanor joins me again to discuss our new relative: how we found her and the mix of emotions surrounding it. Excited, nervous, and a lot of feelings over the memory of our brother Jeffery. Finding out our deceased brother had a child who will never...