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Motherland: A Memoir

by Barb Higgins ・ Proceeds go to The Molly B Foundation

Episode 12: The Last Week of Molly’s Life

In this episode, I look back on the few months leading up to Molly’s death and in particular, her last week alive. The few months leading up to Molly’s death were frustrating, and I worried as her condition worsened. Come along with me as I look...

Episode 11: The Inseparable Bond Between my Daughters

My daughters Gracie and Molly have an inseparable bond. As they’ve grown up throughout the years, they’ve had great times with dance and theatre, as well as struggles with friends and school. At the same time, I had my own struggles with my...

Episode 10: The Loss of my First Child

Long before I lost Molly, I lost my first baby, Gordy from a heart defect and his loss followed me. I didn’t plan on having kids, but Gordy was the first in a chain reaction of interesting events, and through time has shown me each of my children...

Episode 9: Grief and Guilt After Death

The trauma, grief, and guilt that comes with child loss is immense. My day to day life changed after my daughter Molly died, but with the help of online grief groups I've been able to work on my trauma. Not only has my life changed, but my daughter's...

Episode 8: Child Loss and Parenting Through Grief

When Jack was born it made me think of his future, the support system he has, and how I have to be mindful of my trauma when parenting. Child loss and grief have impacted how I parent and made me express my gratitude for others in my life on a daily...

Episode 7: The Generational Gap and Changing Culture

Times have changed from when I had my first child to now. My parenting style, social media use, and the changing culture about what makes a family has had profound effects on me. Stemming from the generational gaps in my household and the trauma...

Episode 6: The Media Frenzy

When I had Jack, my phone would not stop ringing. From Good Morning America to The Today Show my story has been shared to thousands of people. I have had so many positive responses, but along with the positive came the stress and consequences of...

Episode 5: My Emotional Labor

In this episode, I go more in depth about my emotional experience being pregnant and giving birth. From my friends and family’s reaction to me having a baby and dealing with the difficulties of breastfeeding it was a wild ride.    Key...

Episode 4: My IVF Experience

Being an older mother had its challenges from doing two IVF transfers to dealing with preeclampsia. In this episode, I discuss my IVF experience, keeping my pregnancy a secret for months, and the journey of Jack’s birth.    Key...

Episode 3: Discovering my Brain Tumors

Having a baby was far from my mind in this episode as we dive into my medical tragedies and of course, the wonderful support system I met along the way. From my brain tumors, to my jaw surgery, to Kenny receiving a kidney, and the joy that came from...

Episode 2: The Beginnings of Jack

 Having a baby at 57 was a long journey between having surgery, struggling with my medication, going through a lawsuit, and trying to keep my families heads above water. In this episode, I am going to dive into the process of having Jack, the...

Episode 1: My Life Story

In this episode, I’m thrilled to take you through my life with all the ups and downs that have occurred. From working as a teacher, having a baby at 57, losing my daughter, and reconciling with grief my life is full of extraordinary events. Today...